A New "Happy Medium" posted 3/3/2007 9:27:18 PM | 4 kudos what's this?     report abuse

cabl_guy

There for a lil bit, I was on my own rant. I didn't care about what my family or friends thought........much anyhow. I go through this bullshit every winter. Work drops off due to weather and holidays. I care for a minute or two, then become oblivious to it as soon as I realize that I'm not in control of it. But, each year seems to get progressively worse, attitude wise.
So, this winter, I worked up to a 12 pack per day, every day, plus the 2 to 3 packs of Marlboros to go with it. On average, $600/month. And, that was all fine when I'm working. But, DAMN!, does it hit you when you're NOT!
Anyhow, I decided 2 weeks ago today, to change it. At 40, it's kinda pathetic to create excuses to keep a habit. I imagined what I could do with that money IF I could get control of it. And, I have!
I said, "Fuck Marlboro and their $4.15/pack!" and switched to Derringer mini cigars for $9.60/carton. Thus saving about $200/month. And, I cut my drinking down to a 12 per week instead of a 12 per day. Of course, that means I only drink 1 day a week. lol But, I still have a grasp on it!
No DT's! No regrets as far as my choices. It suprised me how easy it was to change once the decision was made. Really! To me, it proved that I didn't really have as bad of problem as people thought it was. But, perhaps, that was my inspiration.............to prove them wrong.
Sure, I didn't quit smoking or drinking. Hell, I helped grow plenty of tobacco and have made some kickass, homemade raspberry wine......plus a few other talents. Point is, it takes skeptics to get me outta my rut. And, I rose to the challenge. Now, I spend $30/week or so on habits.
Shit! I even quit Mt. Dew while at home and converted to spring water from down the road. So, does that mean I have the funds for a new Springer Softail cum spring? Ya'd think so but, NOT! The old lady would never buy that one. She's hung out with plenty of my biker buddies to deny that request.
Point is, I'm just happy that change came so easily. It proves, to ME, that I wasn't totally off the deep end. I still have the power to change. And, I'm STILL in control of my habits. I wasn't sure about it for a minute. Of course, my hobbies are trivial compared to other's. I just needed a gut-check.
Of course, the old lady would prefer I smoke nothing and never drink a beer again but, that's her bad. She's naturally mellow. I don't function on the same level. I NEED the out...........sex, drugs, alcohol...........on a good night, all 3! But, I'm just as passionate about my job.
Anyways, this was just a feeble attempt to pat myself on the back for jumping through hoops and succeeding. I'm impressed for the minute. We'll see how it goes from here................

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