I'm still hangin' around but I've been very busy. I've decided that I'm burnt out on/ and sick to death of making floral arrangements and grave saddles. It is more of a job than you might think. Also, with arthritis getting worse in my hands, it just gets harder and harder. So for one thing...I'm gettin' outta that totally.
Second...Last year I sorted through my Christmas decorations and had a garage sale but...I didn't do a good enough job! It's funny how I've reached a point where I just no longer have a big interest in decorating for any holidays. Fall is my favorite season to decorate for and even that has lost its allure. I will decorate but I'll K.I.S.S....lol
So I've spent several days boxing up silk flowers, saddle frames and other craft stuff to get rid of. That includes fall decorations, Halloween and Christmas decorations. There is a site I joined on facebook where I'll try to sell some of it but I will have a garage sale the first part of October and guaranteed...this will be my LAST one!
Tomorrow I get that injection in my back. They had me stop my Celebrex over a week ago and now my arthritis and fibromyalgia is just a screamin' demon! I do have pain pills but I don't take them anymore than I have to. But I took a heavy-duty one earlier so now I'm feeling better. I have an eye appt. this afternoon. I think, once again that my eyes have changed since my cataract surgery and I need new lenses.
I'm pushin' folks! Pushin' to get shit off my ta-do list so I can focus on other things and writing is one of them. I have a ton of books to read so readin' is another activity that I want to indulge in this winter.
Yanno, sometimes life is filled with 'start-overs'. I started over when I moved here to this lil town. I took up crafts and yardwork and making floral saddles. I got involved with every activity that Susie threw my way. There were times when I grumbled because I wasn't use to being so busy but for the most part, I enjoyed it. But there comes a time when enough is enough.
I can't tell you how much I miss my solitude...quiet time where I create with words or just do my own thing. There have been some changes between me and Susie. Nothing I'm going into detail about...ain't ya glad??? Something has changed with her and I'll be damned if I know what it is...I think she prefers to make me guess.
Anyway, I know she's hurting physically with back 'n hip pain and I do understand that that can make one a little distant and withdrawn. But it's more than that and I can't quite put my finger on it. My opinion? She's fallen out of love with me and/or realizes she never really was in love with me and she refuses to admit it...to me, or herself.
Whatever the reason, we spend a lot less time together anymore and that works for me...especially when it comes winter. I believe we are evolving to being just friends and probably not even very close friends at that.
All I know is...I'm excited to get all these danged details (flowers, decorations, ect) out of my life. I'm excited that Susie won't feel compelled to spend nearly every evening with me this winter so I can enjoy my solitude and writing. And already I look forwards to next spring and summer...no more getting bogged down with doing things I don't wanna do. My REAL flowers will be limited. I have so many other summer things I want to do and by gaud...I'M GONNA DO THEM!!! It hasn't been real bad this summer and the times I do just sit in the garage and watch the world go by has been a real pleasure!
It is hotter than Hades today and will be again tomorrow then a wonderful cooldown. Friday is only suppose to be like 45! Then a slight warm up. How I love fall. Life is changing for me and like any changes, it's sorta scary in some ways. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I'm slowing down. I'm crossing an invisible line between can do (wanna do) and just don't wanna anymore. I see no problem with enjoying that ole rockin' chair 'n laprobe...just not on a full-time basis. Reading is good and something I haven't been able to indulge in in a very long time so where better to read than in ye ole rocking chair?
Ok...gotta go. Ya'll have a good day, stay cool, be safe 'n keep smilin'...
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