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posted 6/13/2011 9:40:10 PM |
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I'm sitting here pondering life’s mysteries, wonder what it all means. The turmoil, the hard feelings, the out right lies, the lies of omission, the hiding behind masks, and all the rest of what humanity does to screw the other person. Not everyone, but all too often the ones we think are the very ones we should be able to depend on, to trust, and the ones we are supposed to care for. I have no clue now why such behavior is so rampant, other than pure greed. And mind you I’m doing this without the aid of my favorite companion in such times, or a substitute. Coffee with sugar is my beverage tonight. So this probably won't make any more sense than when I’m half bombed.

Today I got a little help from two guys I know around here. One came over with a commercial duty weed eater and took down the grass that was growing in the drainage ditch out front. The other helped me get a few things picked up and straightened up outside. Now I just have to pick up where they got a start and finish it all up, the cleaning and making this place look a little better, and maybe I’ll feel a little better too once it is all done. Then, I might be able to get back out in the shop and have fun doing something I really do enjoy. Making lots of sawdust and scrap out of perfectly good wood. After I get it straightened up as well. It is a big mess and I’d be hard pressed to create anything out there.

Why I can't get that level of help from relatives, I don't know. Once his daughter and her husband come out here again to get this junk boat of his and his mini-van, I’m done with them. And if I can get something done with the mortgage to get his name off of it, done with him too. The reasons for this are deep seated, and not all is his fault, nor all of it mine, but he refuses to believe he is anything but perfect it seems, and above doing anything other than making decisions based on his faulty reasoning, and very misplaced belief he knows everything. I am not going to do a thing to help anymore. The van is going to be parked in the pasture, beside the boat, and I hope it rains like hell before they get here, I've gotten my mower stuck up there when it gets wet. Then let them call a tow truck to pull it out. Is that helping? If I give them the phone book?

I'm tempted to drain the battery too, but that might be taking it a bit too far. Just let it die on it's own if it will. I'm mean nasty and ornery, I know. You don't have to tell me. And a bit vindictive too at times. Oh well, they shouldn't have kept using such lame excuses for keeping me in the dark, and not having internet access. They do have broadband to go at wall mart now, and her hubby works at one of them.

So who has some happy news tonight?

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hog77297

Jun 13 @ 10:16PM  
Well if your going all out slash the tires and pee in the gas tank!
Sorry your feeling so down, and I hope all ends up great for you in the future.
soft_touch938

Jun 13 @ 11:20PM  
Sorry duster...no real good news from this camp. Just found out today that my hemoglobin count is low. What does that mean? Stool test. Blood test. Possibly a colonoscopy. But at least I know now why I'm so damned tired all the time.

I echo hog's suggestion... And trust me, I understand how you feel. Hope it gets better for you soon. ((((hugs))))
onehornytoad69

Jun 13 @ 11:56PM  
Big hugs To a Bro!!!

I can only offer some Hind sight advice ........
Life is short!!!!
So I got fucked over......sobeit!
When your Bro is gone........all that will not matter!!!
Big Hugs...and Prayers are sent Your way!
Plz don't hate me for posting this!!!
borty293

Jun 14 @ 7:33AM  
At our age Mr.Duster , we gotta find things to do that we enjoy. I just discovered I have a talent for photography. I've been hiking in the woods taking all sorts of photo's. I don't care what other people think of it ...I'm having to time of my life. I haven't seen anyone in my family for 20years and I couldn't care less.

Plus I gots a world class panty collection to take care of....
RevDocLove

Jun 14 @ 8:47AM  
Don't worry...Be happy
1bunny629

Jun 14 @ 12:50PM  
I am not really sure what's going on and what they are keeping you in the dark about, but I have a feeling after they have your brother for a while they will understand what you have been going through. I am sending you happy thoughts and hope you grin soon!...oh...and don't be mean...it isn't healthy.
theSkwirl

Jun 14 @ 1:30PM  
I have great news.. It's my birfday and I wanna fuck!!!!!
sugarnspice005

Jun 14 @ 7:00PM  
Your brother is living with his daughter now...let it be her headache. Yes, it sucks when the ones you think you should be able to trust and rely on the most turn out to be the ones to "screw" you over. I think most of us have been there.

As to the mortgage, and getting your brother's name off of it, I'd suggest you ask your lender about it. I know here, when my fiance', Mick, died, all I had to do to get his name off the mortgage and the deed to the house we were buying was to show his death certificate to the lender and to the register of deeds here. BUT, when my friend went through a divorce, she had to "buy out" her ex's share of the house, which meant refinancing. Yep, just talk to your lender and see what they say.

Hopefully you can get out there and start making sawdust again.

Good news.........getting A's in my classes.



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