and I wasn't there for him!!! May God please forgive me !! Hell i didn't knowDont be too hard on your self there OHT!
I have found that if someone intends to do it, they usually show no signs of suicidal behaviour, and they are sometimes beyond turning back no matter what anyone says to them.
A friend of mine spoke with me on the phone not an hour before he did this and other than acting a little depressed (which was a norm for him) seemed totally
We even made plans to get together the following weekend. He then went to his mothers house and shot himself while sitting on her bed as she was making a pot of coffee for them.
My point is, sometimes there's not much warning if any.
So dont beat yourself up too bad.