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I am ready to lose my mind

posted 7/18/2008 9:26:29 AM |
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  alybai42

The past couple of weeks I have been through a lot.

Packing, moving my stuff to storage, finding a place to stay until I can find a place to rent...Uprooting my daughter from her friend's was the hardest part.

Not having a place to call home sucks. I kind of feel like a homeless person these days. No I am not on the street's but for some reason it feels like it these days.

I have no energy to go do anything. I have no life it seems like. I can't sleep, can't eat.

I go to work to escape it seems like.

My daughter and me are very depressed. She don't understand why I just can't buy a house. I wish it was that easy. What is really sad is there are so many for sale because of all the people losing their home's these days. She wants to live where we lived before and there is no apt's in that area.
I can't afford to rent a house. There are none to rent in this area.

I wanted to go back to MN..But that is not going to happen either.
My family don't call and check on us at all..Nice family huh..

The last two years my life has gone downhill and no matter how hard I try it don't seem to get any better.

We are staying with friend's until I can find a place. But I feel like it is not home to me. I feel like we are in the way.
My daughter spends more time crying now than ever before. I feel so bad for her and I don't know how to help her. I have tried to talk to her. Explain things to her.
I feel like I am going off the deep end most day's.

I hear from friend's "It will get better" When Two years is long enough to be stuck in a rut. I have had enough now. I really can't take anymore.

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Sunshine79

Jul 18 @ 10:06AM  
I've been stuck there before too. And I might be there again when my lease is up. And my daughter is already asking questions, she doesn't want to leave her school or friends. I know you don't want to hear it again, but it will get better. Just keep your eyes, ears and arms open (arms for your daughter). You'll find your niche soon!!
Supakid2

Jul 18 @ 10:26AM  
Your feeling stressed out at a difficult time of your life. Slow down, take it easy and relaaaaaax. Rushing things, not eating, sleeping and so on only makes it worse. Go outside, take a loooong deep breath and say " FUUUUCK IT AAAAALLL as loud as you can. The relief is instantanous.
Ewe_Wish

Jul 18 @ 10:37AM  
Aly-- I know how you feel........although i am grateful to stay with my daughter until i could find a place.......I still felt like it wasn't home.......none of my things around me........no place just for quiet time.........

I dont know what kind of financial arrangement you have made with your friend but if its not costing a lot for you to stay there..........my suggestion is try to put as much money that you would have normally used for rent and utilities away and keep adding too it.........by not having to pay those it shouldnt take long to have enough to either find a decent place for you and your daughter or if you should decide to move back to minnesota to have the money to do that.........

also i know that when i was going thru the depression after losing G that i pulled away from people......one of the people i was closest too stopped calling to check up on me and I was hurt...........when i finally got out of my depression and called her she told me I had pulled away from her so she figured she would give me time and not bother me until i was ready to talk again......so maybe your family isnt calling you cause your not calling them? I dont know just a thought.

And whether you want to hear it or not things will get better......but you are the one who has to make the changes in your life to make it better.......it never just gets better on its own.........take care my friend you know where i am if you need me.......
StraddleMyNose

Jul 18 @ 8:00PM  
Tammy, I'm sorry that you both are going through this mess

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