ya ya to those that know me ..... my dual personalities are showing ...
but I just want to say that on July 2.... I officially celebrated one year since I started with AMD.
It was such an interesting year ... no re-cap necessary..but I did do a lot of interesting writing and been through a lot.
You know it's the feast or famine theory of the opposite sex. Right now, it's kind of a feast ... problem is that I am not really hungry and no one really seems to strike my fancy.
I tried changing my tactic by not pre-screening so much .. to see how the guys are in person rather than just basing on photo and conversations. Well, it didn't make any difference. Yes, they are nice people however just no spark ... so I am going back to my regular pre-screening.
It just hurts me to tell a guy that we can only be "just" friends because I've been on the other side where I've been interested in someone and they aren't interested .. no matter what ... it hurts .. and at times -- just being friends .. just sucks!!.
I tried again with a former fella .. still just friends.
So I am going a different route ... have a nice male friend ... neither of us are looking for committment however we both think that we would enjoy sharing time together.
He is only around every couple of weeks ... but I think I am going to give it a try. He is a good enough friend that we chat every couple of days about everything and anything. We had a lot of discussions and will see how it goes.
With him, most of all, he needs a transistion partner.... I had a very good friend do that for me ... so now I am going to return the favour.
Though can you imagine ... no blow job for more than 20 years.... and he's never had his nipples sucked...
OMFG this man is going to think that he has gone to heaven ...
I am going to adore his body from head to toe and back again and everything in between.
*really wicked grin* I've been told that I give the best blow jobs ... and I seriously adore the male body especially a gorgeous hard cock ....
so I warned my friend that he will probably find himself getting really religious and saying
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG over and over again.
What can I say ... I just love blowing a man's mind and body at the same time.
So in the end if I have a really good friend with some extra benefits, that's works good. And when one of us end up going into a serious relationship with someone else, we will end the extra benefits and remain just friends. Don't worry, I do remain just friends with former lovers.
Though I am still chatting with a fella who wants to spoil me .....but just not sure how that is going to work because not going to be much friendship there .... just mostly sex. Nice fella to chat with however he just works all the time ... and here's my hangup .. ... he is just so much younger than me ... 15 years... so absolutely no chance for a long term relationship which is just fine with both of us.
Oh well, I guess I'll just see how it all just ends up ... and oh yeah, don't worry...
I talked about this with my regular friend ... and all on the up and up ...
and will talk and inform with the younger guy before we commence any physical relationship.
and yes Mom and Dads, I will use protection with both.
It was a bit torn about this whole thing ... if I am just taking care of myself ... at this point ... it will be just the younger guy ... I need a guy who will focus just on my needs without worrying about future committment.
I still don't know if I can go all the way though with sex with my regular friend ... I know we have sparks however for sure I will pleasure him as he has never been pleasured.
Some people might not agree with this however I have been thinking about this for months.
My heart is attached to another who gives me everything but intimacy .... I cannot fully give myself to a relationship with another man .... all I can offer is the physical part of me ... so I am going to do just that.
I am just trying to find a way to be happy with my life without hurting other people including myself.
If anyone's been there and done that ... I would love to hear comments... good, bad or indifferent.
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slohand_47
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Jul 8 @ 11:15PM
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I have done a FWB...... and she ended up wanting more of a relationship than I did and she had hurt feelings for a while. She did get over it and we still communicate.
With a FWB relationship you always run the risk of one or the other developing feelings and wanting more. Also....... It would be good to be clear up front if this is to be an exclusive thing until one or the other moves on........ or will one or both of you possibly have multiple partners and is that ok or not. Get it out of the way now.
Have fun ! ! !
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onehornytoad69
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Jul 8 @ 11:30PM
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I have had a few FWB.. and all ended up with the lady falling in-love!
Fuggs up the whole deal! lol
Lady... U R Setting yourself up for a Big... "Hurt"...
If you care for someone else..and you are Screwing another person...isnt that letting your Own self down? just askin... 
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Fckmhrdtnght
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Jul 8 @ 11:41PM
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I know you are right that I could be setting myself up for a big hurt....
but I have been hurting terribly for nearly 8 months .. trying to get over my best friend..
and nothing could hurt more than that.. it has been tearing me up inside
but thanks for the words of caution
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whisperingcomet
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Jul 9 @ 7:12AM
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I had a FWB, and it worked out great....we were/are great friends, the reason that it ended...he started dating a woman known to both of us. I could not run the risk of her finding out and feeling betrayed.
We have a standing agreement, it or when he stops dating the other lady, we will pick up where we left off.
I never felt he was using me for sex. we were just enjoying each others company. 
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Sunshine79
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Jul 9 @ 7:32AM
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I say do what your heart tells you. I'm in a relationship where I don't get much intimacy at home. Sometimes you have to take care of it elsewhere and go on about your life....it happens.
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princealucard
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Jul 9 @ 7:38AM
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Hmmmmmmm interesting blog, u say ur pre-screens of us guys and not just looking at their pics! Well we can't even see a pic of u, highway runs both ways dear, no pic no conversation!
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