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posted 12/31/2007 4:30:54 PM |
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Oh hell, I'm already sitting here at the computer, so I may as well add to the New Years blogs.....

After all, ynot? Oh geez, I've seen it written that way so many times I tend to forget there really is another way to spell it. Isn't there?

I had plans for tonight and they got cancelled a little while ago.....No, I didn't get stood up. Stop laughing, cheering or feeling sorry for me, depending on who you are. Hmm, thinking about it, I've only been stood up once...the dumbass. Just kidding.

Anyways my daughter and son in law changed their plans so they are staying home and bringing in the new year with the kids. Usually we alternate years and I think I'm kinda hurt, cause it's my year. But they have been through a lot this year and decided last minute they just wanted to end this year all together. So that makes up for anything I might have been feeling.

I got invited to a couple parties, but have no desire to go to any of them. I think I've outgrown celebrating at midnight, unless it's with someone I truly care about. And I don't think I want to watch everyone else getting kisses at midnight. Not that I'm not happy for them but....well does that make sense?

So I'm sitting here reflecting on many different past New Year Eves. Some were great, some spent by myself, One I got proposed to and accepted, one I was arguing with someone I loved, he and I broke up a couple months later.
I know it may sound silly, but I believe you should never be somewhere you don't truly want to be at that stroke of midnight. I believe you shouldn't be spending it with someone you don't really want to be with just so you aren't alone.

My worst one--even worse than the one where we were arguing--we were at a party, it was about 20 seconds til and as he looked at me and said Happy New Year and the count down started, I realized right then I did not want to be there and I did not want to be with him. My heart was somewhere else. As he leaned to kiss me I looked at him with tears in my eyes and said I can't do this, I'm sorry and I ran out. I walked 5 miles home. Don't feel too sorry for him, he was a great guy and the girl he hooked up with that night thought so too.

I don't make resolutions.....but I do try to make sure I'm not starting a new year with regrets. You always remember what you were doing on New Years Eve.
I would rather spend it alone than with someone I don't truly want to be with.

Have you ever brought in a New Year with someone knowing it wasn't what you truly wanted to be doing or not who you truly wanted to be with, but went through with it anyways?

This is not meant to be a sad blog, or to bring up bad memories. It's all in the past and it can stay there....I was just wondering if people feel the same way I do about not being somewhere or with someone that you don't truly want to be with at midnight. Or does it make a difference?

To ALL of you I hope this is the New Year that brings you all the happiness and love you deserve. Be safe and be Happy!!

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StraddleMyNose

Dec 31 @ 4:36PM  
Yeah, I do a lot of reflecting on New Years Eve too. We "older" ones probably do this more than the younger generation.


Happy New Years, Trease!
ladybootscooter

Dec 31 @ 4:43PM  
Great blog Treas! It is a time for reflection and resolutions. I've had some good ones and some not so good ones, this one will be pretty quiet I'm sure. Like you I've been invited to several parties, just not where I want to be. Happy New Year g/f, 2008 is gonna be soooo much better!
JamalLewis

Dec 31 @ 4:46PM  
Nice read. Happy New Year
zena343

Dec 31 @ 5:20PM  
Great blog.........Happy New Years to you aswell CL.

max49

Dec 31 @ 5:22PM  
HAPPY NEW YEAR Trease. Now save this for midnight will ya?
borachone

Dec 31 @ 5:47PM  
HAPPY NEW YEAR Trease be safe whatever you do
onehornytoad69

Dec 31 @ 6:21PM  
If i reflected.. I would get down..lol
It's all in the past and it can stay there
I too dont like Looking back....but....
Have you ever brought in a New Year with someone knowing it wasn't what you truly wanted to be doing or not who you truly wanted to be with, but went through with it anyways?
Yep last year.....thats why I'm alone tonight/this year! lol
Happy New Year to You..!

canuhelpme258

Dec 31 @ 6:47PM  
I can not reflect I am an evil undead vampire.. oh
did you mean???? Nevermind!
ynot7769

Dec 31 @ 6:51PM  
well the key is planing n thinking positive of the year to come and maybe refect on the past so to not make the same errors...................this new years will be a bit different for me......as i've slept thru more then a few........haven't been much of a partyer for a longggg time now ..............but this one......well.....it's special ...partly due to amd .....so T thanks for the blog and amd thanks...period
sugarnspice005

Dec 31 @ 7:40PM  
Oh hell, I'm already sitting here at the computer

Yeah.........same here. Just me and my dogs. But, I'm not complaining...tomorrow is a new year...new dreams, or the continuation of old ones too.

Funny thing is.......I don't feel "lonely"....of course with 5 dogs here to drive me insane.....kinda hard to feel lonely. Seriously...these dogs can be a royal pain in the ass......but for some crazy reason I love em.

I'll be kicking back in a few hours....watching the new year come in...then head off to bed cause I've got work tomorrow.

In reflecting on the past year...I guess the one thing I can look back on with a warm heart is knowing I've met and made some wonderful friends here at AMD.. I love you all...have a safe and Happy New Year everyone!
Lisa46

Dec 31 @ 10:53PM  
yeah I reflect alright I should be tangled in bed with a gorgeous man and where am I ???? huh??? Sitting in front of my puter Oh well at least my friends are with me
sumdaysoon

Dec 31 @ 11:23PM  
happy new year.........

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