It's been about 4 months sense I have been to a club of any type... I don't really know anyone male or female that goes to clubs and such. I don't really drink (do wine coolers count or Bud Ice Ale count?) Feel free to wink/email me male or female if you like.
The last club I went to was a strip club and I didn't really like it, something about watching ladies strip seemed to just upset me. I guess it seems I would rather get to know someone for some time before anything like that happened. I guess I really need someone, considering it's been nearly 10 months (at the end of this month it will be) that I have been in any relationship with anyone. I came back to dallas last year in September heart broken after what happened at the end of my vacation in michigan. I walked from the grayhound station in downtown dallas all the way home cause I was broke although I could have called someone for a ride or asked someone but I wanted to hurt myself more, like I did to myself in michigan after I watched the woman I loved at that time leave with out me.
I can't say I have ever been a very social person, I have lived too too much of my life isolated from others not because I have to, but because of my choices. When I get upset and eventually start crying there is no one around to see, although If I had friends here I'm sure I it might be different but I don't. I have lots and lots of friends online, but besides that the only friends I have are my co-workers at work and maybe a occasional friend on the DART bus system. I mean I don't have the same teeth I had in high school, so I am not afraid to smile like I was about a year ago when I had two monster cavities in my front two teeth and dozens more in my mouth.
Several of my friends online have been telling me I need to get out and find someone and stop hiding behind my computer like I have always done. Until I find someone it's just not going to stop the sadness, depression etc. Is this asking for too much I mean I have feelings too even if I have only very recently been able to express them to anyone else.
I will be online playing Arc the Lad: ToS
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