Sometimes, I find the pain too much to bear...
so tough that I can't talk .... to anyone that I know........ I cut off communication...
sometimes it is caused by work..... other times, my own personal demons...
and even though I know that it distresses friends and family, I can't bear to contact them.
I block everyone on my IM, I don't turn on my cell phone for days on end.....eventually I will listen to their voicemails however I don't call back. I won't answer emails...
I did this to my son at university, my parents, sisters and all my friends...totally isolated myself.... I couldn't stand the thought of talking to anyone.
This had gone on for weeks sometimes months at a time.....
I've gotten better these days.... if I am going to do this... I email first so that they don't worry. And nowadays, this only last for one or two days.
So yeah, it's just not guys that shut down and stop talking... this gal has done this too.
It's just sometimes, we have too much pain to bear!!!
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padreroyalataol
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Oct 14 @ 1:06AM
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Is it like a lingering tragedy, feeling like your surrounded by solitude and deafening silence;..mind racing with conflicting inner thoughts..A "Cerebral War" on an emotional battlefield.
I guess Pain is GOD's (the Big Kahuna,?) way of telling us somethings wrong.
Pain passes with time, memories not until Alzheimer's :-)
Always TAKE CARE OF YOU #1; time will heal All (in time), "ya just have to live that long"
A pet or "some" outside interests may help. Break the routine?
Hope you have a better tomorrow, "Hell I hope We All Do!"
Richard
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padreroyalataol
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Oct 14 @ 1:07AM
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You may care less, "some do", but a kudo for your thoughts.
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outlawbikernyc
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Oct 14 @ 3:45AM
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Unfortunately, and although seemingly flippant or sarcastic at first, it is not intended to be but, if I am in pain, it is I who decides how long it does or does not last. If I choose to dwell on the source of the pain, or relive the pain over and over, it becomes impossible to let go of it. If I refuse to let go of the pain, it becomes self-pity. Shit happens. Life happens. You are a strong person and deserve much more. Turn this pain into a short mourning period for that which is no more. Then put it where it belongs- behind you, in the past. All will be well in no time at all.
Just remember that the past is gone... Tomorrow may never come... All we have is the gift of today which is why it is called 'the present'
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openmindedguy71
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Oct 14 @ 5:45AM
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Someone I know and care about deeply has a similar way of dealing with things. And while it is obviously some type of pain you are in, please remember that others hurt too by being ignored. Sometimes we dont know if we are they cause of the pain and while we may know we are not, we still sometimes start trying to find anyway we can of being responsible because we dont know any better. your friends and loved ones are there for you always. And no matter the cause of the pain they can help you through. I know that sometimes you have to work it out yourself, but be careful you dont hurt the ones that love you while you do it.
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Fckmhrdtnght
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Oct 14 @ 8:01AM
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nice comment.....
Actually it's not that I am dwelling on the pain, it's just seems that sometimes that I reach my limit on what I can handle .....
and I can't even handle talking to friends and family..
Life is filled with pain.. suffering is optional ..
I forget who wrote this..
hugs
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straightup_9
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Oct 14 @ 9:19AM
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I can understand exactly what you mean....and you are doing just what you need to do...My ghosts are MINE to deal with, and from time to time I must deal with them...and there is nothing anyone can say or do that will help...To insulate yourself (yes, insulate, not isolate) from time to time is the right thing to do....Your true friends will understand, and your family will love you, regardless.....
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partytimemary
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Oct 14 @ 1:56PM
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Amen.... [Life is filled with pain.. ] sometimes it seems other people get off on your pain ~ and that's just WRONG...
But I totally understand....
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31sunshine
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Oct 14 @ 7:54PM
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There are times in my life that I have to take time and just be by myself to work through anything going on in life. I' better at letting people know about it up front or at least email/text them to let them know I'm on the radar still.
But there are times when all the company I can handle is what's in my head.
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lifeizabitch
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Oct 15 @ 9:10AM
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I went through the same thing for awhile years ago,but then I decided that I was not going to let it beat me. I found a new purpose in life. I wish you well and hope that you can defeat your demons.
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