I truly am kinda lost at this particular moment. Not sure if this is a rant or a question, perhaps a bit of both. I am just really confused, and possibly somewhat stressed. I honestly dont even know what I think for sure. All I really do know, is that I found out tonight how much I really do care about someone. I didnt know how deep my feelings were for him, but II discovered it tonight......
and it scares the hell out of me! He is incredible, he is amazing, he is everything I never knew I always wanted (yes that is a great line out of a movie, but it suites this situation EXACTLY!)
Yes we are taking this extremely slow, and forming an incredible bond... but we have both been burned, as everyone has in the past right?! I just happen to have been burned by online men before - being as I was naive and new to it all before - I have learned a lot. I guess this is why I can get somewhat gunshy when it comes to online meeting men - the first thing that comes to mind is - is this guy real? or just playing me?
But never did I ever EVER even DOUBT this man - we began as friends, commenting on each others blogs, emailing back and forth, becoming friends more and more. Learning each other every day, asking questions, laughing until our cheeks hurt - those bust a gut laughs!!
Today was incredibly special to me, I received a very romantic gift from this man, and we shared an incredible evening together (online this is) - and NO not cam sex, I still reiterate - that is NOT what I am here for. Right now, at this moment in time, I am not here for anything, as I feel that I have potentially found what I was here looking for.
But again, I am scared, today I let my mind get away with me, and that bit of fear that I learned from past burns, came into my mind, and started taking me to a bad place. I only hope that I have not set back what has come so far.
Thanks for listening, my tears have now eased, just getting this off my chest. I am blogging this just for that, to get it off my chest, sorry if someone doesnt like it!
Have a great night, enjoy life, dont let worries take over life, and if there is heartbreak in the future, well , I guess that is life, but I will enjoy every moment of my time with this man! Good luck and have a great weekend!
BTW - I really could use a hug or two!
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ladybootscooter
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Oct 5 @ 11:21PM
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 Best of luck to you hun!
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onions2006
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Oct 5 @ 11:25PM
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Thats beautiful.....  Only kidding..good luck!
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31sunshine
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Oct 5 @ 11:27PM
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I happen to know a couple other ladies hurting tonight that could use hugs about now...and I'd definately give you one if I could....hope this will work instead.... 
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Ewe_Wish
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Oct 5 @ 11:28PM
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I lubs ya loveableone........and sadly I know how you feel. 
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ynot7769
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Oct 5 @ 11:29PM
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*runs in n gives her big ol hug.........bear hug liftin her off her feet...a smooch on her checck...........iis' ok...you'll be fine*
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casuallylooking
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Oct 5 @ 11:35PM
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I really could use a hug or two! Would cyber hugs help? Cause if so, they're being sent to you.
Yes, we've just about all had our broken hearts or been burned. But if you don't put yourself out there to find out if it can happen, then chances are real good that it never will. And what a waste that would be. Life is short, enjoy it to the fullest while you can. Just be careful, be yourself and go at your own speed.
he is everything I never knew I always wanted I love that line...
Best of luck to both of you.... I'm so happy for you.
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skinonskin
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Oct 5 @ 11:52PM
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{{{{{{{{ }}}}}}}} hugs for you and I hope it all works out for you! 
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walkntune
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Oct 5 @ 11:53PM
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I hope it works out and you have lots of joy and happiness in your relationship!
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NightOfOld
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Oct 6 @ 12:10AM
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I truly hope all goes well for you and it is what you seek.
You are a sweetheart and deserve nothing less than your
hearts desire.
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Looking4ever
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Oct 6 @ 1:05AM
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Not everyone you meet online turns out to be a bad situation. Yeah, some turn out nothing like you thought but that happens when meeting people in the real world too.
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PrincessKissy
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Oct 6 @ 1:14AM
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Hugs for ya, girly.... tready carefully, but remember, if you don't offer your heart, he can never enter it fully... it's a risk, but one well worth taking
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fukky
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Oct 6 @ 1:41AM
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I will give as many hugs as you need. I know how you feel, it is hard opening up and letting go of the past. But it is just that...the past. This guy is different than all of the other ones you have encountered, don't forget that.
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hornytoad55
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Oct 6 @ 2:04AM
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The best for you loveableone.  I hope this is you knight is shining armor and he will care you away into eternal happiness.  You have to remember to think with you head and love with your heart, and all will come out great.
Ken
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alybai42
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Oct 6 @ 3:00AM
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Good Luck
Hugs to you...
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dridge
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Oct 6 @ 3:14AM
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South_Of_Main
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Oct 6 @ 4:24AM
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Oh I soooo know how you feel. Good luck, keep your chin up, and smile! They aren't all jerks. mmmm trust me.
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REAL_UNIQUE
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Oct 6 @ 7:49AM
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I hope this guy is the one for you.
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loveableone
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Oct 6 @ 8:41AM
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I have to thank all of you SOOOO much for you comments and well wishes. Just know, that I take all advice/ideas fully into consideration. I will be cautious, as life needs that everyonce in a while, but I also am going to live my life with no regrets.
Whatever happens between me and this man - it doesnt matter, because all I am going to remember is the good stuff. The way hes made me feel, how special and true. Whatever happens in this situation - I will be thankful for the friend I have met, and thankful that I got to know this man. If I dont end up with him, then there is going to be one very blessed woman out there!
Like I said, no regrets, and always look for the good in every situation!!
Thank you ALL again - SOOOOO VERY MUCH!!! Big HUGS back at you!
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Sunshinegal35
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Oct 6 @ 8:41AM
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Hang in there girl, and try not to let your doubts get the best of you! I think everyone has been burned once or twice in the past...it's how we grow from that experience that is important!
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hopon
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Oct 6 @ 9:00AM
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Just take it slow, and be careful!
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maggiemae1969
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Oct 6 @ 11:33AM
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and hugs too
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Lisa46
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Oct 6 @ 11:55AM
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I also give you hugs sweetie!!!
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StraddleMyNose
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Oct 6 @ 3:29PM
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Best wishes to you. 
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