Today's message, should you wish to pursue it, is about the ramifications of getting what you seek. Be careful what you wish for has long been a phrase with which i've been intimately acquainted. "You can never go home," is a famous saying by some long ago famous man. But what i'm getting at is both sides of the equation. Now i don't know what the "good people" do about the situation, cuz i've always been blundering along with that '60's adage of, 'If it feels good, Do it." Truth be told, i didn't really refrain from much, in my life.
Why should i have. I was always undisciplined enough, and lucky enough, that i was able to try most everything that came along, or tickled my fancy. Real bright, so i had Extra brain cells to lose on psychedelics. A good enough athlete that i survived most of my Death Defying, no net leaps of faith and fancy. Glib enough that i could admit my mistakes, and head on out for another rousing night of making them. And of course, i was stupid enough to think it only mattered to me. The good life, as they say.
So now that i'm old and feeble, with all my goodest years behind me, i'm trying, once and for all, to do it the "right" way. I've been in recovery for this and that for so long, that i'm thinking i can trun my errant thoughts of threesomes, and swinging, and bi sexuality over. Turn them over to my under-used Higher Power.Then i can spend my time more usefully pondering the difference i could maybe still make in this world.
It's not so easy, going back to the real world. For one thing, there's no "delete button" for all those silly things you think and say, and ultimately, regret. When you been hangin' in cyber space, for awhile, a lot of the lines get severely blurred. Now i know a lot of you claim to be the same in both places, and i say "God Bless!!" Me, I tried to be Whoever, Whenever, and just not lie, or hurt anyone's feelings. But every once in awhile, you get a little too honest. And not everyone is geared for that. So it's a thin ice kinda thing. Like is it really the truth they want? Or just a more plausible explanation?? Wish i had paid more attention in school, but that was impossible; What with a constant erection, and a photographic memory, i was lucky if my mind even made it to school any day.
So now i'm trying to wean myself from the freedom that is AMD. So many cool people to have met and not had sex with. Pity. So many cool people who have exchanged thoughts and ideas with me; Funny comments, and fierce reactions. I guess i'll have to give up my job as roving neighborhood watch: I'm sure gonna miss that car, with all the handles pre-programmed, and private cell #'s. I mean i can just punch in Lisa, and boot, and windy, and dayna, and wham!! i'm standing outside a dining room in Indianapolis, watching the show. And what a show it's been!! Thanks!! 
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ynot7769
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Oct 2 @ 4:06PM
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dining room in Indianapolis, watching the show.
how the hell did ya get here??? oh shit...are you sitting in MY dinningroom?? umm yano ...thats a benchpress your tryin sit at and eat a samich..........just sayin 
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Ewe_Wish
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Oct 2 @ 4:11PM
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I guess i'll have to give up my job as roving neighborhood watch: I'm sure gonna miss that car, with all the handles pre-programmed, and private cell #'s. I mean i can just punch in Lisa, and boot, and windy, and dayna, and wham!! i'm standing outside a dining room in Indianapolis, watching the show. And what a show it's been!! Thanks!! First of all, You promised you wouldn't ever tell anyone about the 4 of us ladies dancing on the tables..................
BUT WTF are you thinking about? I am telling you right now, YOU MY FRIEND, are not going anywhere!!
Please................enough of the good ones have left already. 
If this is really want you want to do, I wish you the best Turk, you are a wonderful person, that atlas I didnt have sex with (what a wonderful way to fuck up a friendship), and I shall miss you and your great words of wisdom. Take care of YOU!! And we are here if you should ever decide to return to us!
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Pudge2you
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Oct 2 @ 4:13PM
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There's always a little dusty spot right here for ya to come stand... It's downwind so you'll get that contact thing goin'... Ya won't be forgotten so show up and say howdy when it makes sense to do so. I'll miss your wit, please share it again however infrequently.
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ynot7769
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Oct 2 @ 4:34PM
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hey... IF you're really leaving...do NOT cancel your acctt.......yano you're gonna end up coming back sooner or later and when you reactivate your acctt you will no longer be able to see boobies!!!!  
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BuddhaDon
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Oct 2 @ 4:47PM
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Live the life without regrets...
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ladybootscooter
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Oct 2 @ 5:03PM
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I will miss you my man, but I know what you mean. Hard to explain but I feel the gravitational pull of the real world a great deal these days my ownself. All this leaving of the "old timers"...... Does it mean an end of Pervia as we know it? Perhaps. Or just maybe it will become a different place with a new concensus of freaks and pervs as it's finest citzens. Either way it will still be a good place to visit now and then, even when you don't want to live here anymore! 
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NachoBaby
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Oct 2 @ 5:06PM
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Merry Met Turk.. you and yourself are welcome wherever yanno.. I like ya.
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hornytoad55
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Oct 2 @ 5:20PM
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Tetons,I have never chatted with you, just read and posted on your blogs. I will miss you also. I hope if you do leave you return and share your experiences and wisdom with us. Gods speed and know you will be missed.
Ken
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maggiemae1969
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Oct 2 @ 5:34PM
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and when this travesty takes place , who just who do you think will fill the void...... nope I am not letting go ........  
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lintroller
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Oct 2 @ 6:16PM
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Much of what you're saying seems intentionally vague, which is fine. I'm just pointing it out, because since I've been out of the loop, I'm reading it and sensing a reference to a specific event that has prompted a desire to leave this place. Anyway...
I've said it before, in various ways, but I'll say it again: just because AMD is an escape doesn't make it any less a part of reality than your daily routine away from the computer. Sure, you can be less inhibited here--but only to a point. Sure, there's a "delete" button--but it ceases to be useful after you press the "enter" button. It might not be the most important world we live in, but our words and actions here can have striking consequences.
The prime benefit of being here, other than the occasional sex-a-thon between members other than myself, is that you can use your anonymity to reap extraordinary benefits. You can experiment here. You can make mistakes here and learn from them. You can learn to communicate in ways that a somewhat less forgiving "real world" doesn't always allow you to. And, most importantly, you can apply skills learned here to everything you do. Honing your ability to articulate what you feel in writing, and seeing in writing how others react to what you feel, is extremely powerful.
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BuddhaDon
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Oct 2 @ 6:24PM
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I just want to sneak back in and give a  to lintroller's third paragraph.
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borty293
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Oct 3 @ 1:02AM
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Shit....I was just going to ask you if you wanted to do panty deliveries...Hey your a good writer and I enjoyed reading your work...just take a break for awhile ...sometimes this site is fun and enjoyable...just pop in and write a crazy story once in awhile....I'm gonna miss ya...
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