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posted 9/29/2007 10:21:33 AM |
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I just need to start this out with The People on this Site Are Just --without a doubt--Totally Amazing Sometimes!! No matter what Dayna says. lol And I thank you all so much for that.... BTW, I was just kidding about Dayna saying anything, for those who took it seriously.
I know we all come together when there is something wrong and when someone is ill or injured, that's just who everyone here is. But yesterday I put an extremely personal issue out there --completely non sex related-- honestly not having any idea what anyone would think, or say. I just needed to do something with a decision I was fighting with myself over.
I think I wrote it hoping to get someone to push me into what I knew in my heart I wanted to do. But I talked with Dayna last night, and as we were talking I realized I kind of wanted someone to agree with me that it had been so long, let it go. For probably the first time since I have become the person I am, I wanted an excuse or a reason to bury my head and and my heart in the sand and let this just go away. Knowing I could never be happy with that decision. I also realized why I was so scared. Mary J. Blige wrote in a book, "I Blame My Mother Nothing, I Forgive Her Everything." That is exactly how I feel now and have for years. I was afraid IF I read something bad that I would become angry with her or hurt again, and I honestly didn't want that to happen. But it won't. That forgiveness was something I found in my heart and something I willing gave to her. Even she can't take it away. Even through the bad, she helped me to become the person I am, and she gave me inner strength that I may have never had. But I also learned from her mistakes.I understand mistakes and believe in forgiveness. But I also don't take anyones crap.I know that sometimes a person hates themself so much that they can't love others. I learned how to stop that cycle, as well as many others.
As I read your responses about 4 this morning, I was amazed and overwhelmed, even through my tears. I appreciate all of you so very much for that feeling and your heartfelt responses. As well as your suggestions. Thank You All...
I WILL get MY letter. I haven't decided how yet, but I will have it by the end of next weekend. Barring any unforseen emergencies.
BTW, I also found that it wasn't evil or even a sign keeping me from getting it now. As soon as my oldest grand daughter got home from school yesterday, she called me and needed me for something. So I went and got her for the weekend. She needs me now, that letter has waited all these years, it can wait just a few more days. So can I.
Okay, back to your regular Wanna f**k emails........ Good luck and have a fantastic day!!!

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ynot7769

Sep 29 @ 10:51AM  
MAKE UNCLE SAM bring it ...less stress or personal wear and tear n you or your car
Ewe_Wish

Sep 29 @ 11:04AM  
I was just kidding about Dayna saying anything, for those who took it seriously.
Well I am so glad you cleared that up Treas Geez


by the way Wanna Fuck?
NachoBaby

Sep 29 @ 11:29AM  
Sweety.. great tude there! And yay for being there for grandbabies!!! I want grandbabies.. *stares pointedly at daughter who isn't giving up the babies yet*
ynot7769

Sep 29 @ 11:35AM  
I want grandbabies.. *stares pointedly at daughter who isn't giving up the babies yet*

she prolly practices every chance she gets...yano for what it's worth.........
Ewe_Wish

Sep 29 @ 11:40AM  
she prolly practices every chance she gets...yano for what it's worth.........
Damn Y, you dont tell a mother that...........not like mothers dont know.............ya just dont tell them
lifeizabitch

Sep 29 @ 11:55AM  
Truly amazing people here,YES!.
ladybootscooter

Sep 29 @ 11:56AM  
Treas, I was still kind of in my hidey hole when you posted yesterday but I wanted to tell you that you need to get the letter if you just put in a drawer and never look at it again. It is yours, it belongs to you. When the time is right for you, then you can open it and read it. As you said, the forgiveness is already there, you've already beaten anything that it could possibly contain!
Lisa46

Sep 29 @ 12:38PM  
31sunshine

Sep 29 @ 1:38PM  
I'm so glad to hear you've worked this out in your heart. I think you made a great decision.

BTW....wanna fuck???
casuallylooking

Sep 29 @ 1:38PM  
Damn Y, you dont tell a mother that...........not like mothers dont know.............ya just dont tell them
Yeah, Steve. Cause I know for a fact (cough cough, excuse me , something in my throat) that my daughter, well both are still kinda virgins. Except for the times they had sex and produced babies.
Ahh never mind, I just remembered a time when one of them asked me, "Do you know how many orgasms you can have in an hour?" Uh yeah, I knew for me, just wasn't sure I wanted to know for her. I guess that falls into the catagory of being thankful they know they can talk to me about anything. They're both evidently having sex and enjoying it........
casuallylooking

Sep 29 @ 1:45PM  
Well I am so glad you cleared that up Treas Geez
I did write this After I read your review, and umm your personal apology to the 653 people........ I'm just sayin'.
StraddleMyNose

Sep 30 @ 12:52AM  
I totally agree!

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