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posted 8/13/2007 10:22:19 PM |
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  Karish396

I'm happy, but I'm sad ....

I'm depressed, but suppressed ...

I'm alone, but surrounded ....

I'm afraid, yet so strong ...

i wonder if its ever gonna make sense....

if all the bullshit is ever just gonna stop ....

If i will be OK tomorrow ??

or feel the same as i did yesterday ....

my life seems so perfect on the outside ....

that's what I'm good at, putting on a good show ....

but whats going on in my mind .. is not even understandable to me anymore ....

i want so many things ....

but i want nothing ....

i want the white picket fence....

it sounds so good ....

but so fake ....

life's not a white picket fence ...

more like a chain link one covered in vines ....

filled with spiders and roaches....

maybe if you get lucky a couple flowers ...

but just a shit load of leaves .....

i hate that when i think about my life all i want to do is be lost in my past ...

love is the hardest thing to find and the easiest thing to loose ....

i wish i would have held on tighter when i had it ...

can i now feel it again ...

yet its tainted with old memories of what used to be ....

every time i say it , it hurts ....

like I'm saying something to someone new that i never thought i could say to anyone else....

love is feeling like no other feeling ...

the butterflies are real !

when you worry so much about their well being you forget about your own ....

when your always checking your phone to make sure you didn't miss a call !

when your driving you car and a love song comes on ...

and some how its the perfect song to describe how you feel ....

or when your out with your friends and all you want to do is disappear into the bathroom and fuck the shit out of each other ....

when do you really know if its love or just lust?

when do you know that its OK to love again ??

when does the fear disappear????

Maybe tomorrow??

or does the fear ever go away ?

if you never get hurt can you ever really know how good it can feel,

to love someone more than yourself ....

when do you make the choice to be a better person for the one you love ...

after you loose their love or when you find out you can never have it back ............

I've loved, lost love & found it again ....

maybe this time i wont fuck it up ...

maybe this time i wont be afraid ....

maybe this time i wont get hurt ....

maybe this time i wont let myself get hurt ....

maybe this time its real .....



- copyright'K.H.07



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Ironhide

Aug 13 @ 11:28PM  
That is a good poem. I needed to read that.
mejestacool1

Aug 13 @ 11:43PM  

Is it our thought's that make us think or the other way around ?

kris83

Sep 6 @ 12:10AM  
I can relate to that for sure good poem I think u would like NIN if u like that.

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