It only has power if you let it. posted 8/11/2007 5:18:10 PM | 0 kudos what's this?     report abuse tagged: life

lunanegra

I didn't want to mention this,as I'd thought I'd ruminate over it and try to be logical,but I had to talk about it.Its just something I had to get off my mind,or else it would fester and just make me depressed.

Earlier this week,on two instances,I was called a "fat bitch". That's fine,dandy,and swell.I even adopt the word and accept it,every woman has some "bitch" in her,right?I also acknowledge that I am fat,and thats cool too.I know what I am.Hold on though,then he wanted to shoot off the nastiest curveball of words that I ever heard someone say to me: "fat nigger cunt".

Wait. Its okay.Why? For one:it was online,two: I knew this pathetic scrotum of a human being,and three:I think he's an undiagnosed sufferer of Aspereger's,however,I can't be sure of that,but he acts like he's "socially delayed".I sat there stunned,then in the heat of justified rage I fired off a bunch of expletives that would make Howard Stern blush,then told him I feel sorry for him,and blocked him.I then let it go...at least I thought I did,until last night.

Someonelse popped up online while I was minding my own and called me a "bitch",out of nowhere and unprovoked.I sort of knew this guy,but not really,but I delved into the conversation only for him to call me-yep,a "fat nigger" also unprovoked.Naturally,I engaged this vile nutsac with my own mix of words that would make a normal person's ears bleed,but for some reason I felt empty,helpless,almost raped in a sense.

I'm usually one to play things off,not let anyone get to me,not let anyone get the best of me,but I was bested.After all of this was over,I had to think on it,get introspective.The said word in question,what does it mean?

nig·ger /'n?g?r/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[nig-er] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
—Usage note The term nigger is now probably the most offensive word in English. Its degree of offensiveness has increased markedly in recent years, although it has been used in a derogatory manner since at least the Revolutionary War. Definitions 1a, 1b, and 2 represent meanings that are deeply disparaging and are used when the speaker deliberately wishes to cause great offense. Definition 1a, however, is sometimes used among African-Americans in a neutral or familiar way. Definition 3 is not normally considered disparaging—as in “The Irish are the niggers of Europe” from Roddy Doyle's The Commitments—but the other uses are considered contemptuous and hostile.
2. Slang: Extremely Disparaging and Offensive. a person of any race or origin regarded as contemptible, inferior, ignorant, etc.

Therein definition number 2 lies my "a-ha".In definition number 2 it says a a person of any race or origin. So I just as well could've called these bastards the same thing! Doesn't matter,all is said and done,and trust me,its the last laugh I'm getting because I used my brain on this instead of dispatching my dad and his crazy brothers to the first guy's house.(I know where he lives).It still stings,but I'm coming out this the better person on account that while they insulted me,no racial slur was ever typed in kind.Whose the nigger now?

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