I am she.
In the beginning,I was just starting out here and receiving warm welcomes from the regulars,virtual e-pats on the back and flirts too.It was one big party with everyone laughing,drinking and whatnot until I did something dumb like one person at the party tends to do:either telling a bad or offensive joke in a drunken stupor or trying to dance and having themselves look like a goddamned fool.
That metaphor applies here on this site because somewhere down the line,I offended and probably pushed away some with my neurosis and seemingly "negative attitude and low self-esteem".For those who don't know me,they probably think that I have "issues",and the way they say it is in low whispers as if to avoid me having a meltdown upon hearing it.I admit I do,but deep down I like people,I just don't know what to say and how to say it or sometimes I may have something interesting and intelligent but my mind cant compute and get it out in time.Same goes for real life,and because of that I come off as defensive,brash,negatively opinionated,making something that has potential offend and repel,in the end leaving me by myself.Just know I try not to make it seem deliberate.
I'd like to think that the regulars and other members here are not fickle,and when the novelty wears off,begins to look for the next best thing.Or is it that everyone is tired of my "negative" bullshit?I have no idea.All I can say is,that things aren't always as they seem with me.I'll just leave the interpretation to you.
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Wordsofwit
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Aug 2 @ 3:03PM
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I don't perceive that at all. But you are obviously much more in tune with how people react to you. Just be yourself.There will be positive and negative. The people that you come to know and relate with mutually count, the rest are merely insignificant others. It is just like the real world where you know hundreds and only dislike a few with several you are close to. But the vast majority are in that vast neutral zone.
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Lisa46
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Aug 2 @ 3:09PM
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I'm sorry you feel that way! But I've not noticed anyone treating you differently and guess what?? alot of people and me included can ( come off as defensive,brash,negatively opinionated,making something that has potential offend ) so just be yourself!  
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lunanegra
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Aug 2 @ 3:12PM
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you are obviously much more in tune with how people react to you Yeah,but I don't want to be seen as the type of person where everything bothers them.
Also,upon the insight of a fellow member,I'm probably taking things the wrong way.Or the mail system at AMD completely blows and it has sparked a few misunderstandings.  
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frankbarks
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Aug 2 @ 3:20PM
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the cool thing here is you can ignore all the 'thems", take or leave their bs with the click of a mouse. If the "theys" wont take you as you, what are they worth anyway?
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lunanegra
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Aug 2 @ 3:21PM
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alot of people and me included can ( come off as defensive,brash,negatively opinionated,making something that has potential offend ) Feels good to know I'm not alone;I was just thinking the last few blogs were....abrasive?
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lunanegra
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Aug 2 @ 3:25PM
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the cool thing here is you can ignore all the 'thems", take or leave their bs with the click of a mouse. If the "theys" wont take you as you, what are they worth anyway? I wish it were that easy.
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maggiemae1969
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Aug 2 @ 3:38PM
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are you sure its not the block button that is the problem?
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lunanegra
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Aug 2 @ 3:57PM
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are you sure its not the block button that is the problem? Funny(not really) if it were.I was told by a fellow member that he had some misunderstandings here and it turns out that AMD has a few bugs that need to be fixed.
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bentan
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Aug 2 @ 4:07PM
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Forgot to tell you earlier but there was yet another member (also Gold) whose blog I tried commenting to but was disallowed. Since I had never been in touch with her before I knew it couldn't be personal, so I just let her know about it. Turns out several other people also had the same problem commenting and she had no idea what to do about it (and it wasn't the comment settings that were the problem). It is resolved now. But yeah ... no idea why but I sense Gold accounts seem to be having some major problems. Ok I'll stop before the admin here tosses my ass.  
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max49
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Aug 2 @ 4:13PM
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Just tell it how you see it and let everyone decide for themselves sugar. Myself I haven't found you to issues or no more negativity than most all of us although I did try to comment on your blog earlier and was blocked.  
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frankbarks
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Aug 2 @ 4:35PM
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that's just it. Don't be a type. Your mind can say "no" as well as your lips or fingers. Someone can stick neurosis on another when it's just a trait. You communicate better than most on here, but who am I to judge? See?
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lunanegra
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Aug 2 @ 4:46PM
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Turns out several other people also had the same problem commenting and she had no idea what to do about it (and it wasn't the comment settings that were the problem). It is resolved now. But yeah ... no idea why but I sense Gold accounts seem to be having some major problems. A thought occurs! Theres been talk around here about AMD being revamped like the regular Matchdoctor,so maybe thats why theres been glitches and misunderstandings.I'd like to hope its that way.
although I did try to comment on your blog earlier and was blocked. Crud.Well,Max,just know it wasn't me.According to Ben,its been happening here lately to everyone,so I hope were all cool.
that's just it. Don't be a type. Your mind can say "no" as well as your lips or fingers. I think when my mind goes on tangents,its hard to say no.
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NachoBaby
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Aug 2 @ 4:58PM
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Luna.. I don't think that you are being outcast? I read your last few blogs.. didn't have anything meaningful to add so moved along. We all toss ourselves a pity party now and then.. and that's a good thing. As long as you remember to move along afterwards. Keep up the good work.
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max49
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Aug 2 @ 6:22PM
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That's alright sugar. After I got back from my shrink I realized not to take everything personally. Just kidding... it's cool.
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lunanegra
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Aug 2 @ 7:31PM
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We all toss ourselves a pity party now and then.. and that's a good thing. As long as you remember to move along afterwards. Its been a lot like that,Nacho.Problem is,taking myself out of myself..I think I think too much. 
That's alright sugar. After I got back from my shrink I realized not to take everything personally. Just kidding... it's cool. Cool. 
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tetons
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Aug 3 @ 11:43AM
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Dr. T's perscription; smoke more pot, care less. 
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