As I listened to the radio, this beautiful comes on.. of a man who got his dream but didn't realize the price, the loneliness and missing home and going home.. to where his love is.
So it makes me so very sad... I have no home of love to return to... my heart has been scattered in the wind by everything in my life. I don't know who I am, I don't know where I am going, I just know when those I love will be leaving to live their own lives.
I've had to be so strong for all my life... just to survive to be me and I don't know who me....
I spent a lifetime pouring out my love to protect, nurture and encourage all those around me.
When is my turn..... who is going to protect me, nurture and encourage me..........
I never got that as a child growing up....
arghhhhhhhhhh
Chris Daughtry Home Lyrics
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
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sumdaysoon
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Jul 10 @ 8:56PM
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your turn comes when you decide to take it......... 
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Argit01
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Jul 11 @ 2:02AM
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OK here is a potted history of my life.
I have lived in the same home all my life. My father retired, aged 65, when I started working at age 16. My mother was 54 and was still working.
My father got himself a new job as a handyman and continued to work until the company moved premises and then he became employed as a cleaner. He went on holiday with the promise that his job would be waiting for him on his return only to find that it wasn't, he was 70 when this happened. He had to give up driving the year before due to poor eyesight and I was the only one who could drive as my mother never learned. I spent most of my adult life looking after my parents, firstly my father (although I actually assisted my mother in this) and then after my father died in my arms of a massive heart attack in November 2002, I had to look after my mother as she lost her legs to diabetes. She succumbed to broncho-pneumonia in July 2005 and I have never dealt with my grief over her loss. During the last 7 years of their lives I had a relationship with an older woman who is bipolar and she treated me very badly and this has to some extent left me scarred. I then joined AMD last year and found a woman who has not only brought me back to life but has had her own problems in life. All I do know is that I have found some one who I love very much and she feels the same way. The last week has taught me that it does not matter what has happened in the past but how you deal with it and what problems, if any, need to be addressed now. Love comes when you least expect it but when it does and it is true you have to grab on with both hands and not worry about what if's but what will be.
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tetons
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Jul 11 @ 8:31AM
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don't know the answer to your question, per se, but i feel it will happen for you. you seem to have prepared yourself well, on the off chance that it doesn't happen. in the proces, you are helping others as you learn yourself; a good thing on many levels, but possibly making your personal quest a little longer in coming. so, as they say, when you least expect it.....or perhaps when you're not looking for it?
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