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posted 5/21/2007 3:01:41 AM |
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Well anyone who has been a friend of mine in the past 10yrs or so knows about Doug. They know my whole world was wrapped up around him and his words were gospel to me. That my love for him was deeper than any love I thought I would ever have again. That he even has been an issue between Phil and I, that I have struggled with staying with Phil to go back to Doug. That Doug has said he would change if I went back to him and dumped Phil. But that I did choose Phil over Doug.
Last night I found out all those years Doug was also with Kath. That he was not sleeping on the couch. That they were only ever really broken up for very short spurts. I learned a ton more but it's really not worth writing it all out. I mean just what I have written right now is enough. How does a guy get away with that for 10yrs? Now he is going to put someone else through it? How can he live with himself?
I think Phil is happy just another thing to throw in my face to prove he is better than Doug. I hate how he uses shit like that to throw in my face.
As for other things, Summer is getting closer I can't wait for it to finally get here. I picked up haircolor so I can finally get my hair done. Picked up some new summer clothes for Sarah. I picked up some sweet red dress shoes for myself. When Mary gets here I am finally gonna go buy myself all new pants mine are all too big. Mary is awesome for fashion sence and I am not so I am saving that for a girls day out thing.
We got 2 new fish we named them twinkle and lady:)
Anyhow I shall go for now, hope everyone is doing well, tatta:)

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hollywood324

May 21 @ 3:23AM  
I am not understanding WHY you put up with any man who abuses you!?!?!? You seem strong in many ways....you're pretty and can write a blog....You deserve much, much BETTER! It's not something others can do for you, tho....until YOU see it clearly,...you are getting some kind of pay off for staying in a relationship where a man throws things from the past in your face to make you feel less of a woman. I wish you only good!
single4fun

May 21 @ 3:27AM  
Idolizing someone doesn’t mean they are perfect, Ive learned the hard way too , that some people seem so perfect because they give you that impression by hiding so much of themselves and being “perfect”
single4fun

May 21 @ 3:27AM  
Idolizing someone doesn’t mean they are perfect, Ive learned the hard way too , that some people seem so perfect because they give you that impression by hiding so much of themselves and being “perfect”
Lisa46

May 21 @ 8:27AM  
aw sweetie i only got silly for a few months!!! I'm gradually getting over the man who broke my heart. Now come on chin up enjoy your time with Mary and start looking around for a real man!!! As i will also do eventually!
Ewe_Wish

May 21 @ 10:00AM  
OK here is my suggestion stand in front of the mirror and say i dont deserve this abuse i deserve better continue doing this until you feel that way and than kick both of them to the curb.

Leopards dont change thier spots and doug will never change whether you went back to him or not because if he could change he would have already done that and you would have already seen the change.

Phil obviously has a self esteem problem and is making you pay for it with his verbal abuse. Im sure he feels that there is a competition between him and doug, and that you chose him because of the problems with doug not because you loved him more.

Stop the madness, get them both out of your life. You are a wonderful woman from what i have seen, your intelligent, articulate, and funny. Most men would give a left nut to have you in their life and you can do better. But you need some time by yourself to reevalutate your feelings and get over both of them. Its never fair to go into another relationship still holding on to the old ones.

Good luck.

Just my 2 cents.
sue1968

May 21 @ 2:56PM  
I think Phil is happy just another thing to throw in my face to prove he is better than Doug. I hate how he uses shit like that to throw in my face.

This is also abuse sweetie, I hope it gets better for you

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Too much info, insides blown